I’ve been home sick the last few days. It hasn’t been fun.
I’m pretty sure everyone on earth has been sick at one point. And I’m also pretty sure that everyone on this earth has had that point where they’re done dealing with being sick, and they would bargain their way out of being sick at any cost if they could. (Everyone old enough to remember being sick, at least.)
I know this feeling because I’ve often experienced it. First, however, let me clarify; I am in no way pushing aside the pain and suffering people with terminal illnesses feel. I am just saying, that in my non-chronic sickness experience only, it can be extremely bad pain at times. And so yes, I will make little bargains with myself and God. “I will never do this again if this pain ends now.”
It’s human nature that we are not made to enjoy pain. It just sucks to be sick, and we, as humans, will do whatever we need to feel better. Heck, when I’m sick I’ll be more proactive at cleaning my room, praying, even getting ahead on homework if the sickness isn’t in the form of some headache.
Sickness isn’t just something you can make go away by simply thinking about, either. Say you stub your toe and you’re in pain but you know it’ll go away and eventually die down. That’s not what it’s like with sickness, right? Every minute is like an hour because you feel as though you will never get better. This may just be me, but when I’m sick the only thing I can do is think about the last time I was sick. It all comes rushing back into my mind, and I can exactly remember what it feels like. This kind of adds to the feeling of “I can’t remember what it felt like the last time I was healthy.”
I have stomach issues but not the normal kind where you have cramps once in a while. No, I’m talking about cramps that can get very painful. Pretty much every other day I have pain and the doctors think that I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS). It could be worse, I know. But there’s one thing that keeps me going, no matter how bad the pain gets, and it’s something my mom would say to me when I was younger. It’s one phrase, but it means the world to me:
“This too shall pass.”
I mean, sure, it may pass like a kidney stone, but it will pass.